Assuming...

Considering the amount of money I believe I need to have in the future...

Wedding expenses :: HK$300,000
Buying an apartment for 2-3 :: HK$3000,000
Minimum Expenses for having about 2 Kids for 10 years :: HK$1000,000
Maybe a car... maybe not...

w00t. A whooping HK$4300,000. Lets say if I stretch if for about 10 years... I'd need to save about $430,000 a year to make it. And to save $430,000 per year, I'd need at least a HK$40,000 paycheck per month to make that even near possible. That doesn't even include tax, too.

Great. Let's check the options for making that kind of money...

1.) Studying in some really boring university while I dish out happy meals until I'm thirty, then hope to get a job that pays me HK$50,000, then wait for ten years... then get married only when I'm like 40-50... a strange old man that probably becomes gay or pedo...
2.) Rob a bank with a toy pistol. Get shot, and end my life in such a meaningless way.
3.) Take a gamble and throw all my money into a business, which probably won't give me that kind of money in short-term.
4.) Work for my father.
5.) Take advantage of credit-card terms, buy a whole lot of stuff and sell it overseas, continously, and do network marketing while I'm at it...etc.


I hate it when I start becoming unappreciative of what I have...

Your fcukin dreams.

Dreams. How easily we get & forget them. Problem is, some dreams last longer than some other dreams and eventually they develop into obsessions. I'm a good example.

For the whole fuckin month, I've been talking about the restaurant, the restaurant management, the restaurant proposal, the restaurant waitress and what the heck they're gonna wear, what.... the... fuck. And dreaming of making huge amount of money in the future, buying this and that... u know... yeah.

Right now...

I'm just so pissed off. I AM JUST SO PISSED OFF. You know why? Because the proposal is suddenly not required anymore just when I'm done. You know why? Because they fuckin just cancelled it half a mth ago without bothering to even tell me. My father, friends and the whole lot. W0000. What the fuck? Why do i fuckin bother pushing away good-paying jobs? WTF.

GAHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

IKE!~

Ad of the day:

IKE!~

End of Christmas. Next year please?

Its been quite a different, yet wonderful christmas this year... :)

all I want for christmas someday...

Considering I'm lacking a huge amount of money to achieve what I want...

A couple of Designer suits by Armani.
A car. Preferably something I'd really like to have...
A house of my own and one for my mother in hongkong...
Another house in Singapore where I can party with my friends...
Really nice interior decors and decorative materials for the houses...
A wife and a couple of kids in the future...
A decent amount of money to burn daily...
And a nice body too, if possible :P

Its obvious that I'd not be able to get all that by the age of thirty if I just work for some company or get enough angbaos(lai-si, red-packets, whatever...) to gather that amount of money. Not even if I starved myself daily.

I must earn my money through whatever means necessary, most probably by business. I'd accomplish my mission and save the world... for myself.

Muahahahahhaa~~

Winternight

I started my day well with 3 hours of sleep.
I woke up miraculously exactly at 7.00am without the help of my alarm clock.
The water, air and the floor was all cold and it sucks to wake up to it.
Got onto the bus and slept a while. Ate breakfast alone in my office cubicle. It was delicious... :)

From 8.45am onwards, presents poured in. Many thanks to the wonderful lecturers and other colleagues for their wonderful presents. At lunchtime, we exchanged our presents and I got this wonderful neckerchief... :)


I came back to the office after the wonderful, super-2hr lunch with my colleagues. As I stepped into the office, my boss gave me a death-stare and minimized my hp to 1... which i happily held on to and did my work quickly...

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Dinner was simple at Gramps'. Grandma cooked 3 of my favourite dishes. We had dinner and I walked home while thinking about the last entry I made. We trade time, energy and our willingness for just couples of tens of dollars. Is it really, worth it? Is that all I'm worth for an hour? I pondered on it somemore...

"My dream for my life would be an ambitious one..."

"From milleniums passed, people have been enslaved to do work for sustainence and survival. Gradually, people grew out of it and entered another age of slavery. Trade time, energy and your will for some pathetic amount of money so that you can feed yourself everyday and buy basic clothes to keep you warm...but not the things you really, REALLY want."

"Help the poor countries develop a self-sustaining economy, make food plentiful and feed everyone for almost-free... Eventually, when no one is hungry, people do not work for food anymore, but for the greater good of all..."

...

I've gotta be kidding... :\

Voluntary work

Anyone wanna go do some voluntary work with me? I'm sick of trading my time for money...

What Famous Leader Are You?
personality tests by similarminds.com

Piracy of the term "Intelligent beings"

I hate seeing fake LV bags & I cannot apprehend these peoples' mindsets of 'Since I can't have the real thing I might as well buy a fake to mock myself'.

I suppose this behaviour has got something to do with acting as a normal person for too many years. These people, are actually retards but have suppressed for too long. Take a look around; you will notice that the majority of such people are the aunties in their forties, fifties or sometimes even the sixties. They are those who can't spell Louis Vuitton when you ask them what's LV(some of these people can spell it out after giving themselves dictations of brand names by spamming themselves with stupid gossip magazines.)

There's also another group of senseless fools that I believe to be either

1.) The 2nd Generations of the forementioned aunties.
2.) The hybrids of those aunties & gay singers/artistes.

The latter sounds technically impossible since gay people probably won't have sex with such aunties. But strangely, there's a whole lot of aunties out there who loves gay artistes/singers
. I conclude those children are products of gay "celeb's" frozen sperms(I heard its about the cost of a fake LV bag.) and these aunties. And there's also the traditional way of producing second generations of tards by constant influencing / teachings of their parents.

Some of you might not have seen these hybrids or second generations of tards. Let me describe it to you.

1.) Fake "Guess" Sunglasses.
2.) Fake "LV" bags.
3.) 唔湯唔水的打辦。The trademarked "Half-gay-half-auntie" style of dressing...
4.) Bimbo-ness

Basically, a mixture of crappy stuff.

to be continued...

I'm ...

Question
I am slim and tall, Many find me desirable and appealing. They touch me and I give a false good feeling. Once I shine in splendor, But only once and then no more. For many I am "to die for". What am I?

Silly, noobish, untalented, individuals that are not cute anymore...

After leaving the cosplay circle for such a long period of time, I've had this image in my mind of those cute and silly cosplayers I used to play around with to be all grown up to become wiser, matured and talented individuals. Just like me, hahahaha! :P

I realised I was wrong, right after logging on irc and checking out what the 'kiddies' are still saying nowadays. Bickering about noobs, untalented people, ugly costumes... gee, is that all life's about? If that's all you need to be worrying about, please be glad okay?

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Btw, there's only a fine line between clever arguments and stupid comments.

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There are others who don't care about such idiotic people , so I figured that they should be looking at photos and seeing happy/beautiful things in my life...

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oops. I left them in my office computer... so stay tuned and thanks for reading.

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I like Nickelback's "Rockstar", "Next Contestant"... :)

Thank you!

If you were to give me a present for my birthday / Christmas, what would you give me?
(Realistic answers please. Answers do not means you have to really get those stuff for me... but I'd just like to know...)

Just curious.

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Anyway, I've had a total of 3 birthday celebrations! One with Grandpa, one with colleagues and one with my mom's family. Its equally enjoyable in their unique ways and had lots of laugh. Right now, I'm considering maybe I should celebrate my birthday again, as in, my lunar birthday... just for the sake of gathering a whole bunch of people to have fun with me... haha :P

Ooo... and that reminds me that next week is my uncle's birthday... :D

celebrating the 7665th day of my life...

Happy Birthday!!

To Richie, me, and my grandpa :)

Celebrating life always!

ahfaii says:
This is the kinda time that I hate to be staying with family members
ahfaii says:
family problems.
ahfaii says:
the best thing is, you see solutions, but there's always people who refuse to accept it and refuse to believe that they're wrong.
ahfaii says:
I wish I had that kind of time / money to send my mom to a parenting course.
ahfaii says:
(hopefully there is one)
ahfaii says:
failing that, I figured the next best thing would be getting a book on 'how to talk to teenagers for parents'
ahfaii says:
i gtg
ahfaii says:
nitez

Sometimes, we just can't escape generalization, labelling and the stig...

I was a fresh bottle of chocolate milk...

Why wasn't I given legs to run? Or maybe anti-label-sticking surface? A voice? More preservative so that I could be given a chance to stick around longer... so that I could have a bigger chance of leaving cold's embrace...?

Why did you stick me with these stupid labels?

Fai: because I was bored and had nothing better to do.

Chinese Cult Classic~

You Should Learn Chinese

Surprised? You shouldn't be - Chinese is perfect for an ambitious person like you. You're a natural entrepreneur, and a billion people are waiting to do business with you!

What Language Should You Learn?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few. But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky. Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

shedding myself..

I used to be able to see left and right all at once. Now I see nothing at all.

I used to be a big bad winner in the gaming zones. Now I'm a just an overaged gamer.

I used to be the kind of people that can't accept defeat. Now I have learnt to smile at it.

I used to school and find school sucky. Now I like school.

I used to get scolded by my parents sometimes. Now I scold them sometimes.

Little pieces of myself are shedding off. I'm going through something everyday and I learn something from it everyday.

But I forget today easily. By tomorrow I'm another new person on this planet, like the lead actress in "50 first dates".

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I like "Muse". Thanks to Warren I'm addicted to it now... ahahaha~

The only reason...

The only good thing about a noisy scanner is that it drowns out other people's terrible humming.

I was glad she was doing scanning the whole day. I really was.

And thank god i've got my ipod with me.

The truth is, there is no truth but cleverly manipulated lies and illusions...

This actor talks, behaves and really acts, like a friend of mine...
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Woke up at nine in the morning today.
Ate chocolate for breakfast.
Surfed and did no work on my proposal.
Took leave for today, too.
Even though I believed that I was prepared enough for my driving exam today, I still failed.

I blame it on myself, my nervousness and my imagination...

I had my lesson at 12.30pm till 2pm. My exam was at 3.50pm. I sticked around the exam area after my lesson, looking at other people doing their exams and failing it. I imagined what was it going to be like to be in that driver's seat, failing the exam and wasting another HKD$1k to take a couple/more lessons in driving, listening to my dad and relatives making noises about me being a lousy idiot etc...imagineimagineimagine...

And that image stuck to my head. Before I knew it, the invigilator was on the van. Handed him my IDs and Learner's License, started my engines and started the process of screwing up... everything. From the parking skills that I was quite proud of... to everything else.... yeah.

Its just fucked up. Grr.

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We watch TV; a box that shows illusions only a certain side, bits or stories of certain issues, an incomplete view of ongoing events or even the past. Its a cleverly manipulated lie, specially designed to shape the view of people by the media specialists. We often choose to believe in it, too.

Dramas mixes a bit of reality to it and a lot of people actually relate to it, follow their stupid examples and fail in life, miserably sometimes.

The News shows/spreads what 'some-people' want the public to believe in.

The live rockband event shows doesn't show you the ugly side of people fighting behind in the crowd.

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And WWE wrestling isn't real... for those who're like -youknowwho-...

...

On the other hand, its easier, more relaxing and enjoyable to believe in little lies that doesn't really matters to us.

Saturday, 9am in the morning.

Its a Saturday morning at the office. Spent some time doing my work and some time on other lil things like reading Dilbert's blog on a wide range of issues; cloning, cleaning your hands after using the toilet, meeting screwed up people... and uploading photos....

And what the heck are you talking about?
Somewhere in Shatin;

Everytime i opened a bottle Tai Wo Soyabean milk, I'd have this wonderful ritual; open cap, kiss the second aluminium cap before i realised, hey, soyabean milk doesn't go through aluminium and so you'd have to open it before drinking! w00~
This whole bunch of photos... It makes me feel as if I'm back somewhere in Singapore where you get those stuff easily everywhere. Shown in the pics are Bakuteh and Nonya Kuay... :D

A lil conversation...

ahfaii says: i've run out of ideas to blog
ahfaii says: or rather, i need to talk to someone.... to express my thoughts for now.
ahfaii says: hello kairin :)
kairin says: hello ah fai
ahfaii says: i've been having problems at work with some of my colleagues.
kairin says: ...
ahfaii says: sigh
kairin says: like wat? sexual inuendos kind of things?
ahfaii says: they are like very cold to me.
ahfaii says: nothing of that sort. I just don't feel as welcomed at lunch as i was before...

ahfaii says: before i let them know i'm just a sec5 graduate.
ahfaii says: so there, i suppose education has got something to do with attitude towards people
kairin says: ... hrmmm
ahfaii says: they are all university graduates.
kairin says: so they think lowly of ur education background...
ahfaii says: i suppose so.
kairin says: ah...
kairin says: and before that...
kairin says: they treated u...
ahfaii says: i can't find any other good reasons...
kairin says: well
ahfaii says: or maybe they find my topics of conversation not-of-their-taste.
kairin says: do u need to justify their actions
ahfaii says: sort of.
kairin says: maybe they all are having that time of the month
ahfaii says: lol... i hope it ends soon if thats so
ahfaii says: ahahaha
kairin says: i think when girls work together or spend time to gether
kairin says: u know their bio clock / rhythm gets similar
kairin says: so they all could be gettting their periods around the same time
kairin says: so...
ahfaii says: lol.
kairin says: give it half a mth...
kairin says: maybe will improve lor
kairin says: if it does
kairin says: den every mth like that lor
ahfaii says: i'll probably just have lunch with myself as usual... as before ... or maybe with other colleagues etc...
ahfaii says: btw would you mind if i copied this conversation onto my blog?
kairin says: disclaimer alert!
kairin says: i will not be held responsible nor liable
kairin says: ok now you can
ahfaii says: thank you :P

A new low in the lvl of interest for whatever i needa do... & int lvl of certain people...

But I'm glad I've got a super highspeed broadband.... 5 minutes to download one episode of Bleach from Baka-Updates!

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Guy humour :: (For guys only!!!) :: If men wrote Advice columns for women....

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Bleed the pain.

Sometimes it hurts like this when people say stupid things to me, act superior to me, critise me for the smallest of flaws, backstab me every chance they had, put me through and through in their endlessly pathetic office politics, push me around...

Or you can just do it with a knife too. Its more painful, but at least its less annoying then all of the above which makes me want to rip them apart...

I'm
so
sick
of
you...

I had a dream last night;

I went into a lovely cafe which somewhat resembles Starbucks as I could see green everywhere. There were beautiful people around me... and I saw H.Y buying a drink at the counter. Somehow I was able to find her seat and there was a tin of cookies on her table. The tin of cookies had a green and beautiful cover. I took one of those cookies, closed the jar and when I wanted to put it down, there were two tables that looked exactly identical to the other. I figured she'd see her tin of cookies when she got back to the seat... and I went away.

I walked a couple of steps and I turned around to see them shouting... there was two H.Y?! They were fighting for that tin of cookies... @_@;;;

I wanted to continue the dream but I had to wake up -.-;;;

Hehehehe~ H.Y!~ I'll buy u something for christmas okay? don't go and fight with yourself for a tin of cookies :P

PS : btw, i've lost everyone's addresses as I've dropped my address book on a train. Please kindly email me your complete address + telephone number! Thanks~

My life on this jolly sunday...

Living just 1 floor above ground, I wake up happily everyday to the aroma of the bakery's freshly baked bread and pastries at 7am in the morning, which works wonders on me compared to those annoying alarm clocks(I'm quite notorious to certain people for smashing them...).

Entering the bathroom, I can choose between using my manual brush / automatic electric brush to go with Colgate or the other one that leaves a strange taste in the mouth, yet strangely effective for destroying ulcers in the mouth... Colgate + MM.Brush for today :)

We went jogging after breakfast... It brought up issues about my fitness level which
I am not too proud to mention here. Anyway, I think I might have done better if I had poddy's music with me when I was running... But, to bring poddy out for a jog, I'd need all those fancy-looking things from Here except the charger...




I came home, took a quick bath and watched the last episode of Lost (season one) with Mom...

:) + :) = ( : : )

A happy early afternoon...




I'm gonna go have some lunch, walk around the city area later and check out some winter-wear/gadgets/restaurants...



Happy Sunday! :)
Fai
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Photos & Complains

Its officially 26/11/05, 30minutes past midnight. The feeling's right for blogging...

Let's start with the boring, unwanted and uninteresting bullshit first.

I want to take new pictures of new places that I've not gone to, but my schedules are totally packed with important events all these weeks; my driving lessons, exams, family dinners, dinners with relatives, meeting up with my long-time-no-see cousin and dating.

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I went to Ikea to get their catalogue again. NOTE: AGAIN.
I don't know whats wrong with them, there are obviously a whole stash of Ikea Catalogues in their store, but they just fuckin refuse to give it to me. I'm quite sure that the counter lady had seen me at their store just a few days ago when I bought something there and asked for the catalogue.

So i figured the only alternative is through their online catalogue which sucks ...in a way. Sigh.

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Anyway, heres photos I've taken recently.

Visualisin mp3s.

There are many things we can't do irl, but its fun to fantasize the "what-ifs" ...
Nickelback - Next Contestant

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This song keeps repeating itself, echoing in my mind...
The Cranberries [ To the Faithful Departed ] - Salvation

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Jamie Cullum [ Catching Tales ] - Photograph

I love this song. Lovely lyrics and brings up old memories ... or maybe memories that has just passed a couple of years... You can get the song's lyrics from here.

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Anyway, I've been working away as usual. My life is ordinary but satisfactory for now. I've not written anything for the restaurant proposal for these few days, exercised, or really did anything that I should be doing instead of having lunch with pretty colleagues and wasting my time away in the arcades...

But I'm just like that sometimes... and I enjoy those moments very much.

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As usual, there's much on my mind that has yet been sorted out. Wondering about "Idea A" and five minutes later another train of thoughts is let loose and runs over "Idea A" immediately. This would repeat itself all the time and I would be in this daze, constantly... which affect my work performance. It probably affects my cubicle-neighbour very much too, as she keeps giving me work which I'd love to do, but always forget to do... she's strangely tolerant to me -_-;

"...Father getting married to that woman, the restaurant, the chinese medicine books, wing-chun, photocrafting, that girl I met at the restaurant some time ago, my mother, the things mom planned for me, distracting music from my iPOD-nano, friends that I've not contacted for a long time which I want to talk to but too distant to, financial problems, strange ideas and ideals that would probably never work(even though I wish it would)..."

All I can do is respect my father's stupid decisions, hope they get tired of each other soon, divorce and pray that that 'lady' ask for too much of alimony. A 27 yr old with a 50-something? Get real. She's only after your goddamn money! She's showing all the signs of pretence everywhere, trying to humor you and me all the time! FUCK.

And my Mom who has gone through thick and thin with him for like, 20+ years... gives him all her savings to bring up his company, loves him so much that will still wish he's doing well nowadays, still aching over this betrayal and dreams that he comes back to her...

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I just hope I won't be like him when I'm 50 something...

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impulse shopping.

1.) Logitech Quickcam Zoom, RMB$299
2.) Ikea Glass(Made in Turkey) HKD$24 for 4.
3.) Full set of Dilbert comics with both Chinese and English, RMB$70
4.) Casa magazine, RMB$30
5.) Stackable brick containers/photo holder, RMB$55
6.) Can of music plant, RMB$10
7.) Sango Beat-em-up games in a pack... RMB$25
8.) Uploading photos here, Free For now...

9.) Seeing Kairin(1/2 n3kk|d) and lawrence drawing+showing me stupid signs on webcam, Priceless...

Quiz 'n' entries

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Black Comedy

In your life, things are so twisted that you just have to laugh.You may end up insane, but you'll have fun on the way to the asylum. Your best movie matches: Being John Malkovich, The Royal Tenenbaums, American Psycho

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?

never watched any of those movies before... :

Your Brain's Pattern

You're a simple thinker, and this is actually a very good thing.You don't complicate matters when you don't have to.You look for the simplest explanation or solution, and you go with that.As a result, your mind is uncluttered and free of stress.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

babblebabblebabble...

Your Career Type: Enterprising

You are engertic, ambitious, and sociable.Your talents lie in politics, leading people, and selling things or ideas. You would make an excellent: Auctioneer - Bank President - Camp DirectorCity Manager - Judge - LawyerRecreation Leader - Real Estate Agent - Sales PersonSchool Principal - Travel Agent - TV Newscaster The worst career options for your are investigative careers, like mathematician or architect.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

Muahaha~ The answer is very correct :) :) :)

Ahfaii and Fai

What Does Your Name Mean?

AHFAII

A is for Astounding
H is for Healthy
F is for Flexible
A is for Athletic
I is for Innocent
I is for Inspirational

FAI

F is for Funky
A is for Alluring
I is for Irresistible

Wishlist ... itemlist...

I'm gonna put up a new wishlist on my next entry...

Skilfulness....

Train of weird thoughts

After work today, our family celebrated my grandaunt's birthday at a restaurant. Food was great and I had a cream soda which I haven't had for like, years(for real).

Met my uncles, aunts and my cousins whom I do not recognise at all. Some of my cousins are hawtbabes. Some are fat. Some are ignored. Well, what the heck.

I sent Grandpa home after the dinner. He limps a little nowadays and has to walk slowly, talks really loud and likes to cut into other people's conversations rudely sometimes... but I'm strangely okay with it...

It set me thinking; I'd hate to become annoying at times/a lot of times, unable to run around, lose the meaning of life, have dinner with ungrateful kids... not that these things are happening to my grandpa right now, but... how's old age going to be like for me? How do I prevent myself from being an annoying, poor, unhealthy and strange old man? What are the alternatives to that? :(

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A magician that can make things disappear through sleight of hand.
A super-eater contestant who's stomach's can contain 50 charsiew buns.

Could the magician possibly win the super-eater in a super-eater contest? :o

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