help ahfaii do something ok? kthxbye.

do this for me.

and this one too.

kthxbye! :D

I had the chance to witness a dog's castration surgery last Saturday. It was kinda upsetting... :|

The doctor diagnosed that the little fella having cancerous balls at a terminal stage(technically, the testicles if you insist... :: btw, the balls were in such a bad condition it was bloated up to the size of a small orange) and terrible teeth decay. His owner signed away at the relavant documents and said bye-bye to him. We carried the dog into the cage while we prepared for the surgery.

As I did the blood test, he barked, and barked, and barked, until he didn't feel like it anymore. He knew something was going to happen to him and it wasn't good, at least to him. The doctor and his other assistant prepared the anesthetics. The printer rolled out the results for the blood test and it was a 'go-ahead' sign for the surgery.

The dog whimpered a little while we brought him out. He didn't put up much of a resistance as I gripped his little arm, watching the mixtures of liquids injected into his bloodstream. The medicine did its work through his body quickly and so did we.

3 hrs later, he woke up to find out the word 'he' cannot be used on it anymore. Shivering and having to lie in a pool of vomit, suffering the pain from the passing anesthetics and not even able to bark...

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All that just makes me think that being unable to make your own decisions on important matters sucks. If any guy were to be in this situation, I believe 99% of them would have preferred to throw themselves in front of an incoming 18-wheeler instead. At least, I would. The other part was that, the reason why a dog is not given a choice; it is just a stupid mutt, if i were to put it in a crude way. It does not understand the need to endure this frightening and painful process. So someone else who has a brain that understands the situation and has the authority to make that decision does so, although it may seem cruel...

pwnage is a good word to use here.

Understand, learn and be a clever person. Don't get yourself pwned and your decisions made for you.

Questions...Questions...Questions.

Will I live happily even if I have some decent edu... ever after?
And what does ever after actually mean?
Why am I not being the person I wanna be?
Why do I always have to choose between friends and family?
And why sometimes why even myself or others?
Why isn't my life just another RPG game?
And even if its just an RPG game why isn't there anyone publishing fuckin guidebooks?
Or where the f00k is the damn reset button? I've been looking for it since Windows XP came out!


ehhh, wtf am i doin?


I should be in bed...

i haev comuminaciton pormble

I have communication problems. Or hearing problems. Maybe both.

My boss tried to speak English in front of a guailo/angmo customer today.

Boss : Get me the 'tae'.
Me : ???

Sometimes when I hear things, the consonants are either involuntarily ignored or simply can't be heard. There's also the problem of people prefering not to stress on the consonants(maybe they can't). And some believe that speaking decent, perfect-sounding English are reserved for a different class of people which they aren't. In Singapore, they are branded as 'angmoh-pai' which means the 'foreigner gang'.

People make mistakes of all sorts in the English language easily because they apply rules of the Chinese language in them; improper/random/no usage of past/present/future tenses, incorrect pronunciation... blah blah blah. It just drives me mad... argh. I try to tell myself that its not my fault that I am unable to understand poorly pronounced words, but its not helping since everyone around is just like that. Nobody speaks perfect English and its stupid anyone to do that. But I just simply can't hear anything that is 'wrong'. 'Wrong' words are just automatically ignored and I feel stupid!!! ARGH!!!

Another example.

Some Foreign Maid: Hello I wan 1 pack saa-iron deyet for my dog.
Me : 'wtf?'

She actually meant to say 'Hello I want a pack of the Science Diet for my Dog'. She repeated 3 times. In the end, my colleague got the call instead and handed the dog food to her. I was reprimanded for being obstinate in insisting on hearing perfect English words.

Conversing in cantonese is tough for me just like the people around me(literally / practically / whatever-ly) trying to speak English to me. Limited vocabulary / choice of usable words... impossiblity to write out the Chinese Characters...blahblahblah.

Its just all fucked up. Time to pack my bag and go to somewhere else whereby I can hear decent Elgnsih.

Smells like shat

Four days ago, I was typing job application letters and as you'd have thought, it got boring and I played resident evil 2 instead. Freakin zombies, blood, bloody surgical rooms(looks stinky, feels stinky), dumb mutated dogs...ooh, its all freakin cool and fun! And shoot rockets at bosses!

And a few days after that, I got a job when I get to see all that in real life! A little less excitement without the freakin zombies, of course. More 'bosses' to handle in this game, not with rockets but with a sincere smile, wonderful service and technical mumbo-jumbo which I myself don't really know, just programmed to 'play'... :o

A veterinary assistant is what I'm working as now. I've learnt lots of stuff. Blood tests, Urinary tests, Health profiling, holding down a dog for the x-ray, developing flim in a dark room, pushing needles into haplessly helpless dogs, ultra irritating paperwork(mostly)...and so on. I'm getting an average salary that I can't complain about. Exactly 6 days work weekly and they are planning to change it to 5, but no sunday/saturday offs... I'm not sure if its really a good thing.

Ahh well. And by the way, check out my new LG 880! :D
I've got free IDD, 1200 minutes of talktime to burn, 3G services...so talk with me okay? :P

And for a clearer view...

One of those happy days

I asked myself today; What would the perfect day in my world be like? What would I be doing and what would happen?

It would be wonderful if I can wake up at 7am in the morning from a 8 hour sleep + a lovely dream that will keep me smiling for the rest of the day. I'll have a slow, hot shower and wear those comfy, casual clothes that I saw from Sogo sometime ago. Then I'll take my time and enjoy a light breakfast at the Cafe nearby. At half past eight, I'll get onto the bus to work.

At the workplace, I'll greet the wonderful colleagues. Preferably cute, charming and smart ladies in their twenties or so(HAHAHAHA! :D). There will be lots of work that will chase time away and make me look very productive...etc. Lunchtime should be at 12.30pm and someone will ask me out for lunch. We'll go to that newly restaurant around the corner. Seats will be reserved beforehand and the rest of the crowd will wait outside while we have our meal... :D

We'll fight to pay the bills and I'll emerge winner, then my colleagues will try to pay me back in courtesy. A slow stroll we'll take, back to the office...time passes quickly and at 5pm, the handphone clock buzzes and everyone springs out of the office like lightning. Everyone leaves and so will I, but in a jog suit. I'll run 10km and get home, shower and have dinner as scheduled with a wonderful person at 8pm. After dinner, we'll take a stroll in the city and I'll send my date home, then have some coffee and intimacy..... yeah, that sums it up.

Haha! Care to share your perfect day with me? :D

A happy, happy day.

Its been a joyful day... with wonderful things happening by the hour!

5.00pm
I met my father for tea today. As usual, he would give my brother pocket money. Father didn't give me any since I'm 'supposed to be working'. I am almost in dire need of money and my brother knew that. He gave me half of what he gotten from Dad... its just so unexpected. Me, being a miser, never gave him any money before. I'm just so touched :~)

6.00pm
After tea, we went by 'Three' and I complained that I couldn't wait for the N70 any longer since my phone is deader than dead. I had to get some other phone... and so I did. Randomly picked one and left quickly since Dad was making noise... :P

7.00pm
My Uncle, a vet, asked if I was interested in helping him out at his animal clinic...and just like that, I've gotten myself a job...phew! no more sending in application letters! :D

8.00pm
My uncle called again and told me that I didn't need to take the bus to work; he'd drive me there :D


Status: Happy!! :D

And I hope that Warren and Kairin have had a wonderful birthday too! May wonderful things happen to you guys by the hour! :P

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And I wonder how was you guys spent your valentine's day... was it romantic or was it just another boring day? Share your romantic stories with me! :D~

(those staying at home watching tv, gaming, or simply being alone need not apply...)

Everyday can be valentine's day when you're with the one you love

Whats the plan for tomorrow? Its Valentine's day and I don't have to worry about what to get for my date, what to wear and where on earth should we go to avoid all the crowded restaurants... yay :D

I'll wake up at nine, enjoy my breakfast at mac and check out the daily news, send out job application letters to various companies/organisations, play games and watch movies...

No, I shouldn't be watching movies and play my life away. Time is running away quickly from me and I should be doing important things. The urge to succeed is there, but plans are not. Planning is required...

Get a certification to get into a university.
Get into a university or something...
Get a satisfying job...

or

Get a job that I can learn something from.
Proceed to getting contacts and get chances of starting my own company...

or

fail in life. work odd jobs. have no future. despair and then die in a freaky suicide...

Enough said. I'll work on it!!! Yosha!!! :D

I prefer isolation...

For the past few days, I have emailed exactly a hundred resumes out to try to get myself a job. Its not been particularly successful and meanwhile, I have been degenerating into an arcade-hogging pool of slime. Not good.

Afterwards, I get home and get nagged for having a horrible cigarette smoke stench on my clothes and jacket. That's just part one of the parental-concern protocol;
1.) questioning on wherabouts,
2.) machine-gun style questioning the accused person with multiple f.a.qs regarding the accused person's future and his reasons for being unproductive.
3.) detects accuser's eye have been glazed over and the soul has left the body, the person-of-concern gives up hope and puts up a disappointing face, throws a tandrum and blows up the house with her supersonic-powers.

I wanna be alone again. For like, preferably 1 year at least again?

End of another contract... next please!!

Dear faithful readers...

Thanks for noticing that I haven't been updating my blog for quite some time already. I know I should at least 'dot dot dot' or just click publish my 'standby topicless-days rations' here... but I just didn't feel like even pressing anything.

Anyway, the photographs here are taken on my last day working at HKIED. Its been my joy and pleasure working with everyone there. One of the most important things I've learnt from there is the importance of education. Or maybe the importance of your qualifications proven on paper.

Another thing that I've learnt is that, time passes really quickly when you're busy doing something else than looking at it. 3 months passed just like that and I'm still pretty much the same ahfaii as before, except for a slight weight/tummy-size increase due to sitting in the office too much :o

I would also like to appologise to certain colleague(s) that I have not treated well during my stay there. I just really couldn't resist... or rather, I couldn't stand seeing you trying to be anime-ish in front of me... =_=;;;;

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Strangely, I have not had bouts of loneliness for a long time. My emotions has stabilised and outbursts of anger / stress has been toned down to occation snide remarks about random things or etc. I am glad its not causing me too much trouble... :P

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I miss singapore food. chaidaukway, roti prata with fish curry, singapore-style chicken rice, teppanyaki tofu...

...which brings me to the main topic; I've been unable to keep my promises to certain friends of mine... >_<; I appologise for the disappointment I've caused... >_<;

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So...

Now that I'm free, I can set my own targets and do it all. This period of free time has been well utilised; well planned and exercuted. The only worry I have now is that I have is not being able to find a job by March...

I don't wanna be a burden to my family and I wanna earn some money. Hong kong's great, but not so great when you're penniless.

So if anyone's got great job to recommend me(no matter in sg/hk), please inform me okay? :P


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