The first day off for this month : enjoyable

I went out with a friend of mine yesterday. We were supposed to go to Shenzhen, but her parents wasn't too keen about that and so we did other things instead; met up at 8 to have breakfast at Pacific Coffee Company, watched a movie that stars Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom, then ate lunch at some fancy japanese styled - western food restaurant, did some shopping, poured $60 odd dollars into UFO machines with deceptively-positioned dolls and traps, did some shopping at Jusco(we bought toys... lol) and wrote many 'cheques' to many people! :D

Its been 2 weeks since I have had so much fun. 2 weeks is a terribly long time to pass without internet, hanging-out with friends, or other entertainment... >_<;
And school's starting soon in early September! Wish me luck and wish my whole class are full of 'chiobu'(s)! And wish the teacher is a wonderful one too! XDD

By the way, to those who are wondering when I'll be back to Singapore, the closest date I can think of might be during late October when I might need to take a trip there... miss you guys lots!

A little photos...

Hey guys! Here's some photos from my trip taken by a fellow volunteer Andy...

Check it out here.

Its your money, or money. Your life's worthless...

Looking on the positive side as usual, I now have a valid excuse to purchase a brand new camera because my old one doesn't work anymore. The last time I tried to switch it on, it looked like a detonating time-bomb; it was getting hotter by the minute while the red light kept blinking and blinking.

I'm looking at my options between a SLR camera or just the old, regular 'something-that-i-can-stick-in-my-pocket' ones...

Or maybe I'll even change my handphone too. Get that latest sony ericsson cybershot hp and a Sony Alpha SLR.... :)~

That would be sooo perfect... >_<;

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Its been really busy these days. I'm working for my father now; 7 days a week, at least 9 hours a day. I feel quite stupid about not asking how much he's gonna pay me. Maybe its because I wouldn't expect much from him / don't want to take so much from his now-already-dying company. Many of the workers have left now... I don't know. He is still trying to work his way out of the debts... I'd feel really guilty if I make him pay me $8000.(given the overtime and etc I have to do, I suppose I could get about $6500 at least. Throw in the amount of overtime and I'll have $8000)

I have breakfast with him daily. He is very, very stressed.
Eyes are always slightly red and watery; a obvious sign of sleeplessness.
A terrible temper to deal with anything other than customers; a sign of stress.
Hopes of getting out of debt are constantly mentioned, repeatedly...

I'll get stressed out too you know... :(

As usual, easily said than done.

Hello everyone! Anyone on my MSN probably knows that I'm back from Mongolia already. Its been a great trip, thanks to wonderful teammates and all the nice people there~ :)

And once I'm back, trouble starts looking for me. On a daily basis, I'm being lectured for not getting ready for my studies. Money, time required to complete, the reputation of school, recognition... what the f@@@!

The school I wanna be enrolled in is HKU Space. But that is not gonna happen since the cost to complete the term is really too much for my parents to bear. Funny thing is, father is going to enroll me another even more expensive, part-time course. I fully understand that it would be pointless to have a degree without any working experience. But the thing is, its OPEN U.... I don't know why I am starting not to like it... :
But well, I can't be bothered anymore. No point trying to stress myself up any further...

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Random quote::
"They used to envy me for all that free time I had. Now they envy me for the little time I have."

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Photos are on the way... maybe next week?

Kindly refrain banging your computer for the slow loading of page ahead...

As I'm running out of time to correct a little error when I posted this, please kindly read this entry from the bottom instead. Thank you!


After dinner, I went home and pigged out...almost. I remembered there was something in the turnip/carrot thingy that she gave me. I had a hard time digging it out... o_O;
So tired... zZzzZzzZ

Wonderful Wonderful BBQ Pork Ramen at HKD$45 a bowl with additional order of Corn.
But the Japanese fried ramen was even better! (Sorry... it was so good that we finished it before I could snap a photo of it... :x

I had dinner with a lecturer at a place that has Beatrice's Recommendations!* that evening.
And that piece of toufu you see above is the Cold Toufu. From the looks you might not see much differences... but when you put it into your mouth, there's a very 'perfect' sensation... a very 'Japanese' feel to it somehow... Yummy!

*Note: I'm gonna trademark that term... haha!

Ms. Donna Cheung...
without her, I don't think I'd get to know so many people in such a short time... :X

(from Right) Dr. George Ngai from Educational Policy and Administration department.
We always see each other at the corridors.... o_O

Ms. Kitty Ng, me(AGAIN! In that Forrest Gump T-shirt!) and Phoebe in a white dress.

Dr. Pattie Luk. Beatrice's boss.

Ms. Pat Fung. Forgot her position...but err...
I have breakfast with her occationally in the morning... :)

Ms. Prudy Chik, Research Assistant.

Its me and Beatrice again. A blue cup, Beatrice, Me and the turnip-pencilcase.

Miss Law(the New RA for the project), me(again), Dr. Ho, Dr. Eva Lai and Dr. Rosa Chiu-Ching Tak Lan(some of my old friends might find her looking suspicious familiar, someone that we usually see at Taman Jurong...? mwahahha)

Cake number 2. A early celebration for people involved in the Project

Prof. Bond, the 007 of the Department.

Josephine, Brenda, me and my direct supervisor.

Winnie. Most accurate fortune teller.
Very helpful and friendly...

"You can't get luckier than that."

Beatrice gave me a carrot/radish/turnip/Fai-look-alike/whatever pencilcase!~ XDD

"sigh, no more ahfaii..." (:X)

Beatrice, Senior Research Assistant.
I'd say she's more like a Good-food researcher.

Miss Ada. 'Very hardworking'
...and in a few months time, she'll be Mrs Ada something-something!
Congrats! :D


At Ada/Sara's room...

A new lecturer for the department, Ms Brenda Lo.
She will be my badminton teacher when I come back... :P

Phoebe and I. No, not in that order...

Beatrice, Sara and me.



More desserts?! Shocking! XDD

They ordered a mouthwatering Tiramisu cake,
just because I wanted to cut one... :~)


Yesterday was my last day at work in the EPCL department of HKIEd.
These wonderful, lovely and [insert any nice word here] colleagues of mine had a farewell lunch with me today...

Irony

I play to learn.
I play to forget.
So what do I get?

Fate & Destiny

I had lunch with a colleague of mine who is very famous for telling accurate characteristics, luck and destiny from their names.

According to her predictions...

- In friendships, (on the average) I will have some friends who do not treat me well. That happened already...
- In marriage, I will marry a wife that will bully me. If I marry one that doesn't, we'll divorce. I probably won't have luck to have good relationships with my kids. They'll probably hate me, too.
- In work, I will offer many good suggestions to my superiors, but they will always reject it because they hate me for being smarter than them. To tone down the effects of this, I was told that I should avoid playing the 'smart-alex' at work and just do whatever they tell me to... :(

- In romance: I will have luck in romance until 45. Before 40, it will mostly be women. She told me that I'm destined not to able to handle relationships properly and I will eventually be those people who avoid women. After 40, I'll have luck in romance with men... which I would seriously not want to. My colleague suggested that it might be caused by the inability to handle relationships with women, then i turned to men... :~(

- From 28 onwards, I should not engage myself in dangerous sports like skiing, sky-diving or even driving cars without a license. A very bad accident will occur if I do anything like that.

- Before 33, my life will be a relatively easy one...but after that, the sailings won't be so smooth anymore...

hurhur... my life suxxxx. I REFUSE TO BELIEVE IN THISSSSS!!!! EVEN THOUGH SHE'S DAMN ACCURATE!!! T_T

New Game // Continue?

By the 1312542135th time you play a game and exercute the "ultra-cool-sacred-secret-special-moves" for the 2143514th time, the fanciful graphics and the feeling of awe in discovering the secret moves won't be there anymore. It'll just become something so routine, so usual and boring that you'll no longer be able to appreciate it.

Can we say the same for love?

Or like a video game, we proceed to wait for the next edition of the game to come by, play another 24125316th times to get sick of it?

How many games are there? What if you only play one type of game? And what if that type of game isn't produced anymore? Would you be stuck forever playing the last game they made and replay those games that you no longer find interesting?

Replace dating as game and Sex, that 'sacred-secret-special-move'.
Maybe we aren't meant to play with it so much and so often until we get so sick of it until nothing is secret anymore.

When everyone else around is having fun with that game, the feeling of being left out, the tiredness of having everyone telling you how fun it is, etc... >_<;;

Your thoughts?

What is love?

Q: What is love?

Interviewee1:
Love is a waste of time. Its basically a mathematical equation.
Love is not like food water or air which is essential for survival.
Love is not for survival.
But love is still essential because we are conditioned to think that it is important.

Q: You mentioned that its a mathematical equation, so is there a formula?

Interviewee1:
Actually a formula is to prove if an equation is valid. But in this case, since love is not for survival yet it is essential... makes it a conflicting equation. Hence its like saying it cannot be proven, hence love is a waste of time...

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Other replies:::

01.) Love is when one longs to be with another and each other gives n take from each other.
02.) A feeling that wont dies easily.
03.) I dont know.
04.) Love = Sex = Huat!
05.) Something that adds to my headaches. Something that I don't have.
06.) Indescribable ba... mutual respect/care and no limits in sacrifice ?
07.) Love is just a word. Fxxx is the action.
08.) Love means breakups and divorce in the progress. Please wait...
09.) 係一個正面既動力令到自己去do something／忍受／付出／花時間了解．．．從而得到滿足，even不求回報...
10.) LOVE IS 真心付出.
11.) Love is something u give but dun expect a return.
Q: If so, if I give money to the casher for buying things, then i dun expect her to give me change, is that love? :P

12.) I don't know what is love, but I think it goes way deeper than liking a person. It is like, even if you have achieved all your dreams and not having THAT person to share that happiness with you, it becomes all meaningless...

Quoted from "5 People You'll Meet in Heaven(thanks Janys):
"Lost love is still love, Eddie. It takes a different form, that's all. You can't see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nuture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end," she said. "Love doesn't."


I would like everyone who has taken the time and effort to reply my silly question. These replies have somehow helped me gained a new perspective on how should I view love is... :)

Thank you!

Mabel

As far as I can remember, I know of 3 Mabels. And so far, they have been a wonderful presence in my life.

The first one was a girl I got to know in the arcades, she's now studying in Texas I think? She plays KOF lots. Learnt that some girls can be horrible... especially when they know Judo... >_<;
The second one was my tuition teacher...ooo how could I possibly forget? :)~
She helps me with my maths and science... and she was ... wonderful, too.
And the third Mabel (hopefully not the last one I am going to know), is a lecturer working in the same department as I am. She wasn't as beautiful as the last two that I knew, but she had the heart of an angel.

A couple of days ago, she invited me to chat in her office. We talked about the things I would like to achieve in a few years time.

"I wanna get a diploma in marketing, then continue doing business just like my father and grandfather did."

"Is Marketing really where your talents are?"

"I suppose so. A good friend of mine once told me that every few lines of conversation he had with me, I would deviate the conversation to something about making profits, business and etc."

"How about your interests? I thought you liked teaching.."

"I do, but teaching alone isn't going to do well to satisfy the materialistic me. You see, if my needs aren't fulfilled, how am I going to have that kind of love, passion and energy to teach well? I suppose teaching can wait until much later...maybe when I'm well off enough, I guess?"

She then handed me a book; "The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People".

"Maybe you'll change after reading this. Try taking some time to do some self-reflection and tell me what you think. You can start by thinking up 10 things, events or whatever that has happened in your life so far that made you really happy. Note it all down and look for the similiarities between them. The answer might be there."

Humans are strange beings. For example, if you are going for a urine test, the urine sometimes just won't come out no matter how hard you want it to. Same goes for this... I spent the whole night thinking, eh, what made me REALLY, really happy?

Getting laid? Beating opponent in arcade/computer games? Having 'yes' as a reply when I asked the girl of my dream for a date? Getting my first paycheck? Getting to the top of the hill?

So far, the only time that I felt the happiest moment ever, was about 6 years ago? It was a ridiculous situation; I had accidentally dropped the toilet paper 'core' (u know, the hard cardboard thingy) unknowingly into the toilet bowl and did my business in it. (Now I know some of you might have heard of this story before, but I think there are some still who are interested)

After that, only Mom used the toilet and then she figured what had happened, somehow. She gave me a major lecture and forced me to get it out by myself. I offered to pay to get a plumber to get it done, but she insisted that I do it personally. You can pretty imagine that situation; a real, full stinking load of crap to pump out, put your hands (almost; i had a plastic bag) in it and get that stupid thing out... whoa. It makes me sick just thinking about it~!

For 1 whole hour I stood there procrastinating, omg omg why do i have to do this? Mom hates me mom hates me etc... Then finally at 11pm, I knew there was no other way out; I pumped and pumped and pumped. The stench... it was eternally unforgettable I tell you. And you do understand that when you try to thrust something into the toilet bowl, there's bound to be splashes and etc etc... Overall, it was just HORRIBLE.

At 12am I finally got it out. I was exhilarated and very pleased with myself. The fruit of hard labour was just too wonderful...


More crap to come... later den continue...

:-(

I smacked the kid today.

I didn't need to. He was quite normal; naughty and just not wanting to have a boring tuition lesson.

Now her mom wants to talk to me tomorrow. Great... -_-

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I kind of feel like its my fault that he's not actually progressing as much as I wanted him to. Since the last library fine, I didn't borrow anymore books to help me in my teaching anymore. Without those aids, I feel so helpless trying to get his attention. The desperate feeling pushed me to anger... :~(

I am so sorry... argh!

Because, so and so...

By wearing a nice shirt to work today, 10++ people stopped dead in their tracks, checked me out and ask me why I am I so well dressed today.

I should wear nice shirts to work.

你今天的幸运指数是... -10 / 10 !!!

I had a couple of fortune cookies yesterday and it predicted the followings:

-your toilet bowl break.
-you will sit with smelly retard.
-you will step on dog poo-poo.
-your day will suck badly. everything will oppose you.
-causeway bay will trap you.

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I got home 12am today. Almost automatically, I took off my shoes immediately and as I was about to take a pee. And there it was, a broken toilet bowl... thanks to my bro.

At 3am I felt like taking a pee. Ran 400metres to the toilet at the market(actually just 100m, but to and fro = 200m and being so tired it felt like twice the distance). Couldn't sleep after that.

Went to work. Was verbally punished for looking tired... -.-;;;

After work, I went to Causeway Bay to get my new ID card. On the way there I HAD to pass by the arcade and I was 15 minutes early on my schedule. So I played for a while. A sudden reminder rang in my mind; omfg! I'm meeting someone who hates cigarette stench later! (fyi, hk arcades=smokehouses.) So I ran out to buy a can of deodorant spray to overlap the stench as much as possible. Then my phone rang. It was my friend and she says she wasn't gonna make it for dinner tonight since boss ordered her to do OT... :(

Fine... whatever. So I went ahead to collect my new ID card. My phone rang again. This time it was Mom and she wants me to go home to get pictures of the toilet taken so that the plumbers could give us a quote. Ate and headed home hurriedly to get the photos sent to them. On the way to the busstop, I had this uncanny feeling that I forgot to do something but I just couldn't remember what it was. I got onto the bus and paid the fare...

After I got onto the bus, I finally recalled what I was supposed to do; send out something to my friend. It was too late to get off as I was almost home. Got everything done quickly and rushed back to causeway bay. Waited 15 minutes for the damn bus which supposedly should have been there in 5 minutes. Worried, I called the remittance shop and they said they would wait for me for another 15 minutes.

I was stupid enough to run around Jaffe Road without noticing that the road plates has the building numbers stated on them. So from one end I ran to the other and I came back to the spot where I had my dinner earlier on. The remittance shop was just across the road and I didn't notice =_=;;;

By then, the shop was closed and I was like quite pissed off since they didn't waited as they had promised. Decided to take the Ding-ding tram home to save 2 dollars and besides, I was all sweaty and smelled really bad so it might be better take something that has better ventilation. Two stops away, I regretted my decision. A mentally-disabled middle age man came onto the tram and sat beside me, took off his hat and there was this oppressive, disgusting stench which I couldn't possibly imagined that could be of this world. The lady who sat next to him on the other side quickly retreated and then went upstairs. As I took a brief look at him, he turned to me and smiled... just like a retard! (omfg, what am I saying, HE IS RETARDED.)

I walked upstairs and sat down. He followed suit and sat right next to me... =__________=;;;

"Hehhhh hehhh hehhh. I like sitting with u!"

"...........but I don't. Get the fuk away from me!"

"but I don't want to...."

So I sat there, with him sitting beside me and smiling, almost drooling too. When the tram moved, it was still alright since most of the smell blew backwards(my sympathies to those who sat at the back). But when the tram stops... ooooooof. Luckily, the driver was pushing the tram to full speed all the time and saved me a few minutes of torture. Had a hard time to get off since the fella refuse to move his legs to let me get out -.-;;;

Sigh... :~(

Saturday

Me too. Watched Bleach since I woke up at 3pm today... haha! Its been quite some time since I've slept so much! I love sleeping! :D

Life Update!

Hi how's everyone? I have been really busy with the plannings of the mongolian summer camp thing these days. Reading materials on Mongolian Culture, getting to know the local English curriculums and their standards, searching online for various materials, attending meetings, plannings, trying hard to translate the booklet. I barely have time to take a breather and since my boss needs to go Macau to help out at a seminar, majority of the workload has been transferred to me instead... -_-;;;

Meanwhile I am still tutoring the kid. And I just got my pay! :D


















































Toby Yau, The Kid.
Very restless and naughty boy, but with my ub3r-l33+n355 patience and preparations beforehand I managed to get him settled down by playing games... :P

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Food
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Maxim Fast Food, Hong Kong


Chicken Sushi with Salad :)

Haagen-Daaz


Special Edition Black Sesame Ice Cream: wonderful!

Pizza Hut

Cream Puffs with Molten Chocolate: Yummy!

Infatuation

No girlfriends.
Low on Cash.
But still, I'm happily infatuated with the latest love in my life; teaching.

I'm loving it! (Just like the way mcdonalds would say it)
Its just so fun to teach! And I don't know why! :D
I was tutoring "the lil fuck" ( the FUgily Cocky Kiddie... i know its lame, but too lazy to find random short-forms) just now. Lesson went amazingly smooth today; taught him many many words and some sentence structures through fun and games. He was happy and I think I'm even happier; happy for him and for myself, too. By teaching him, I have also learnt more; about myself, my style, self-awareness, control and how to teach - timing of lesson, child management, etc..

I'm all excited about the trip. Father says he'll sponsor part of my trip, as much as he can... but honestly I doubt it would anything but a substantial amount. Business is not going so smoothly for him recently. Don't know how much longer he can continue like this...

Anyway, he's been trying to talk me back to help him out. I would like to, but there are other factors involved; financial concerns, actual interest in the business, school... Gahhh! It's still a few months away! I can afford think about it later!

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To: Butter Snatch (Carl)
Thank you! This is such a wonderful surprise. I never expected to actually get donations, or at least, not from someone thats so far away and barely knows me or the rural-english organisation!

Anyway, I would like to know if you're interested in funding me for this trip, or would you like to donate to the "Rural-English"Organisation? Please let me have your email address so that the me/organisers can pass you more information.


Best Regards,
Yeung Hung Fai

Music ringing in my head

无间道
歌手：刘德华

不我不愿意结束我还没有结束
无止境的旅途看着我没停下的脚步
已经忘了身在何处
谁能改变人生的长途
谁知道永恒有多么恐怖
谁了解生存往往比命运还残酷
只是没有人愿意认输
我们都在不断赶路
忘记了出路
在失望中追求偶尔的满足
我们都在梦中解脱
倾心的苦
流浪在灯火阑珊处
去不到终点回到原点
相守那走不完的路
music
谁能改变人生的长途
谁知道永恒有多么恐怖
谁了解生存往往比命运还残酷
只是没有人愿意认输
我们都在不断赶路
忘记了出路
在失望中追求偶尔的满足
我们都在梦中解脱
倾心的苦
流浪在灯火阑珊处
去不到终点回到原点
相守那走不完的路
一路上演出难得糊涂
一路上回顾难得麻木
在这条亲密无间的路
让我想你你想我怎么会孤独
我们都在不断赶路
忘记了出路
在失望中追求偶尔的满足
我们都在梦中解脱
倾心的苦
流浪在灯火阑珊处
既然没终点回到原点
我想我们都不不在乎

Mission Mongolia - the first meeting

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I've had a fulfilling day. Lots of work at the office today. Emailed Dr. Li regarding the Mongolian Trip. He was very enthusiastic and came to me personally all the way to my office and invited to their meeting today... :)

It was the first meeting. Not many people attended(total of 8 only), but it was fine anyway. Everyone introduced themselves and we had a brief introduction on what they would like to achieve for this trip; teaching the teachers there to create suitable materials for teaching, encouraging the use of English... mostly that. After all, these are the things that the organisers are best at since they are working at the Department of Educational Policy and Adminstration and Dept of Curriculum and Instructions. Got to know a few teachers who are very worned out teaching fucked up kids of all kinds. We had a discussion on what we activities to organise during the summer camp of our visit; the objectives of the summer camp, the games we're gonna play with the local kids there, the complications of the games... etc. It was all wonderful and I'm glad that I am well prepared for this meeting today with all the "Creative teaching material production" books that I've borrowed from the library earlier(to prepare lessons for that fugly notti boy...ahaha).

I was told that there is no chance to exercise English there. Lack of teachers, resources, and many other factors causing a record low of motivation in learning English. I'm told that the kids there are extremely hardworking and clever, as according to one of the participants who have been there during the last trip(it was to somewhere in Beijing... one of those rural villages). They are able to use whatever resources they have actively, like using a pencil as a electricity conductor... :o

I believe all they need is a little push in the right direction, resources and fundings. The school we are visiting is a self-funded school. The teachers there(well-qualified individuals who deserve so much more) are only earning a meagre sum of RMB$500 a month(US$62.50 / SGD$100) . Respect man, Respect! From the letters they have written to the organisers, they are actually happy to teach there; the students there are willing to learn... no, not just willing... They are HUNGRY for knowledge and thirsty for more...!

But for English, they're not so motivated. Why? Because there is no motivation to learn that. Why? Because there is no use for it. Why is there no use for it? Because everyone there speaks Chinese/Mongolian language and it seems perfectly fine for them to be unable to speak English. Besides, anyone who speaks English well could be despised! WTF? WHY? Because...

Its just the way they are. (Maybe its a Chinese-thing. Till today I still don't understand it...). Actually, its not only happening in Mongolia. Even Singapore sometimes have that kind of problem; u pronounce a word properly, you'll be labeled as 'Angmo pai'(westernised) and occationally be stared at/despised. But really, whats the problem with speaking proper english? Its a mystery that needs to be solved asap...

And I'm still worried about what's the decision I should make about this thingy because its gonna be quite expensive; Minimum HK$5000-6000 because its not gonna be a funded thingy. Volunteers are going to be digging out money from their own pocket because even if there are any donations, its going to be going to the Mongolian School first; obviously they need the money more than 'us'(which excludes me).

Its not gonna be easy. Also, if I were to go, I'll need to end my contract one mth in advance... which I wouldn't want to since I'm strapped for cash now. I wanna go studying and I'm gonna need the cash for myself...

Donations anyone? Or volunteers?
Visit www.rural-english.com for more info on this.

Thank you and have a good day/night, wherever you may be.


Regards,
ahfaii

Mongolia? Villagers? o_O

My school is organising a missionary trip to Mongolia to teach children in the countryside English.
I think its going to be a wonderful experience to learn ways to teach students.
I wanna go, but the problem is I don't think I'm academically qualified to do the job. So many people in school... :(

But in their advertisements they will also need somebody who can speak Putonghua to be their assitant... will try and see if I can go. If the organiser says I can, then I'll try to convince my bosses... ~_~;

What About Me?

Friendster, Blogger, Forums... all got place to write 'About me'.
I would like to have something there for others to read about me but I'm...

1.) just too lazy/
2.) don't know what to write/
3.) can't write properly/
4.) all of the above.

Whatever it is, I just can't be bothered. I might as well outsource it...

Anyone out there free to write one for me? lol...

Composition : About ahfaii.
Write a English/Chinese passage/composition/poem/profile/autobiography...whatever about ahfaii! If yours is chosen to be posted on my blog/friendster/anywhere, I'll send you a gift! XD
Please participate and help the lazy ahfaii! THX! XD